MY long deep desire... just got comlicated from reading..

kelmichaels333

Hi. I want to ... actually NEED TO... welcome myself into this very complicated world right now with you all, because it has taken me a little over 2 and 1/2 years to find the courage to write actual words down in this forum. I am in ... very surreal feelings at this moment writing in this forum and feel very alone in my circumstantial situations for so many very reasons.
But I made it here... and... whew.. this is wayyyy to overwhelming with all the abbreviations and words and ..the entire language that I don't know. This was a LOT to get to this point and I am really hope that this forum this real. And... and this is my life and I want another child to bring back into my currant little sweet girl baby love's live and I need to find the way to make this happen. I am 45 years old. I see it that I have ONE chance and one chance only. That is now. It will have to be a miracle.. because I have zero dollars and no lawyers and my life completely........... . so completely.... NO MATTER WHAT I HAVE FOUGHT FOR ME TO BRING OUT IN LIFE TO THE WORLD THE GOOD OF WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER AND TO SHARE AND SPREAD.... AND GIVE TO MADDIE TO HANG TO...has NOT happened... and THIS baby doesn't really have anything to do with Madison except in the sense of a sibling and what I would more than anything in this world love to present her with that gift,.. a sibling.
I said to him in that last 1-1/2 yrs at end... "it's not like you were trying to have babies with me all these years"... he never said a word. I grieved I want more children. I am not too old and I would make the most incredible Mother at the age of 45.
If you do not support me... if you have harsh words to say... if you are negative. PLEASE do not speak them in my thread. Really. For real. Because I really do not care what you have to say about my loving feelings about the love that I have.

kelmichaels333

I came back... that's okay that no one answered... the fact that I came back and didn't run away is what mattered. wow. Could it actually be a possibility to have another baby>

BloomersMom

I think it is safe to say all of us have been there and felt that same deep desire to parent...that is why we are here. As for not seeing a response right away, know that people don't really come on the forums very often. Good luck to you!