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The forum has a new look and the Fairfax Team is so excited to create the best experience for our users.
To Note:
Private Donor Groups and Private Sibling Connection Groups are now located under the category "Groups". Search the donor number in the search box and you should find exactly what you're looking for!
Questions about your forum access? Email forum@fairfaxcryobank.com
Follow these steps to join a private donor group:
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I'm out!
Amirasmommy
Senior Member Senior Member
I'm out! I've had a terrible day. Im out this cycle. Today's scan only showed 1-12mm follie at CD17. UGH! I'm so frustrated and defeated. And I feel like no one really understands why this is so upsetting. Most people respond to meds...and I got nothing. Everyone is trying to cheer me up by saying "you've been pregnant in the past so you can get pregnant again". Or "this wasn't the right cycle for you" or "it's just your first try, you can try again next month". But it isn't next month...last cycle took 56 days and that was with a failed round of provera and progesterone injections. I feel like I'm about to start a marathon but I can't get through the starting gate! I'm totally overwhelmed and depressed. Im not even going to plan on a November IUI because cyclers are do incredibly long. So I guess I'll have another go at December but who knows what will happen. The doc is putting me on glucophage and increasing my Letrozole to 7.5mg but I'm still not very optimistic. UGH :grr: I don't know where to go from here. I've spent half the day crying and I'm exhausted. Oh and from now on I'm going to try to have last appt of the day because it sucked to have to go back to work after such an aweful appt. Please someone help me! I don't know what I need said but I know if anyone knows it will be you ladies.
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I say this because my one close friend has been through breast cancer several times. At one point she admitted she was tired of talking about what treatments she's had or what's coming up - she just wanted someone to say "I love you, and I'm glad you're still alive". I know telling her that doesn't "fix" anything either, but at least I know it's something that can help reinvigorate her fight and give her a break.
Find your break, ask for it, and remember that those people care. Ultimately, don't be afraid to let yourself cry. If you're so inclined, I'd encourage you to just pray and spend some time in silence listening to the powers that be to find that calm.
I do understand what you are feeling and what you are going through because I have been there and just had the same thing happen to me in July and again last month. There is nothing that anyone can say or do that will make this better. Let yourself grieve. It is a loss. A loss of a healthy and producing ovary. This does not mean that it will not find health. If your fsh levels are ok then you have a chance! Allow yourself to cry and to grieve. we will listen....I will listen! I will also help you to get through this.
I have just started acupuncture...... I know what you are thinking, yet another thing I need to do?! This is what my experience has been. I have more energy, I feel better and I am sleeping better. I am not only doing the acupuncture but I have changed my diet to help bring things into balance. On top of that I really like the philosophy of eastern medicine.......that ovarries do not fail, they are meant to produce eggs, they just need to get in balance. the acupuncture can also help get your cycles in line. With me it is a hit or miss each month whether I will produce a follie on meds, and I am talking injectibles! 450 units of gonal f at a pop. This is very expensive and if my insurance didn't cover it, I would not be able to do this. There is a book that i would suggest reading. While you have the time. It is the infertility cure by randine lewis. It is about 10 dollars on amazon. It is written for us. It gives you questions to answer and gives suggestions as to what to do about what is going on. For me it was like check, yep that happens, oh my gosh all that happens. It then gives you suggestions as to what you can do with your diet and some of it is easy to do right away. After a week and yes I mean a week, I have noticed many changes and my tongue and pulses are both better. It WILL give you HOPE! You will just have to trust me! It has rejuvenated me and my thought process and my positivity.
It may help to read some of the posts in share your story and are you moving onto injectibles? There are a few of us that have some of the same issues. Together we will get through this. Cry tonight, go through the stages of grief and then make it to the other side. We will be waiting for you and here to support you! you are NOT alone. You will make it through and you will realize your dream of a sibling for your beautiful daughter!
If you need to talk more, I am always here, you can send me a PM if you want.
Robin
I know! It is a little easier to have that BFN, I cried harder when I didn't stimulate then I did with the bfn. Don't get me wrong the bfn sucks but with that you know you can try again. With the no stim, you aren't sure when you can try again. And you start to question IF you will be able to try again.
Ladies, I know the bfn sucks and it is really hard. I am not taking away from that, For those of us that don't always stim, it makes us question even more. With the BFN, I know at least I was able to try. With the no stim, I wasn't even able to try.
Robin
I've had the opposite....hyperstimulation in less than 10 days :twisted: ...It's so defeating and frustrating. I essentially tossed $2500 to the wind with nothing to show for it. Pumping yourself up with hormones and your body not doing what nature indended. Your chance to try just gets snatched away from you and you get the wind knocked out! I can imagine how frustrating having a prolonged cycle in the hopes of a good response and then nothing. I'm very sorry that you have experienced that. It's still very much a raw emotion and time (and decreased hormone levels) will certainly help you process and get your head back on straight. Allow yourself to go through the wide range of emotions and then come out on the other side focused and determined to keep trying. Picture yourself holding a healthy baby and knowing that it was all worth the challenging humbling journey.
If you need to chat I'm HERE :ugeek:
Moe
Im feeling better today...still disappointed but not crying. I'm not optimistic about this upcoming cycle. I don't expect to even get to it until maybe thanksgiving or later. So maybe I can do an IUI by the end of the year. Someday I will look back at this hurdle and be thankful that I didn't get pregnant. Because in order to have my future child it has to be that exact egg. That egg is just not ready yet. I'm going to try to be more patient. I also think I need to stop putting my life on hold for IF.
Don't count yourself out for next month until you get there. I have learned to be cautiously optimistic. I wait each month and hope that something grows. I know after 4 days on the injections, whether this will be a go month. I usually feel the follicle growing so if I don't feel anything, the ultrasound usually confirms that nothing is growing along with the estogen levels. The injections are crazy expensive.....especially if we have to start out at higher levels. Maybe next time your doc can start you out on a higher dose of the meds? Talk to your ovaries each night.....encourage them that they can do this. I think of mine like a plant. The more I talk to it the better it responds.
November may be the it month, you never know!
Keep the positive thoughts flowing! Sending you lots of positive thoughts and ovary dust!
Robin