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My husband is reluctant...help?

My husband had a lot of health issues as a child and some pretty significant abdomial surgery resulting in the loss of his right testical at a VERY young age. He was reassured all his life that his remaining testical would be more than sufficient for him to father children one day. We never thought twice about it...until we started having trouble getting pregnant. Now the dianosis is official: Severe Male Factor Infertility. We don't make a ton of money and so donor sperm seems to be our best option to have child, but my husband is having trouble with the idea. He says he is okay with it, but worries that he'll always be thinking about it being "someone else's" baby. He thinks he will have a hard time if people say the baby looks like him when he knows it can't. I am trying very hard to help him through this uneasiness so we can move ahead with the donor selection process, but I need help. Suggestions? Anyone been through this? Words of wisdom? Please!!

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  • JuliusJulius Junior Member Junior Member
    That is a tough situation and it will take some time to get there. My husband also had problems at a young age, but he was told he would never have children so he did not have any hope. That brings a different set of challenges. I can see how thinking it would be ok and then learning it was not ok after all would be devastating. My husband was initially totally opposed to using a donor. So, we explored all of our other options because I did not think we would ever be pursuing DI. We met with doctors, attended foster parent training, talked with couples who adopted and an adoption agency, and explored embryo adoption. The cost and risks just were not feasible for us. We then saw a fertility counselor, and that did us the most good. We actually tried 2 counselors. The first one just did not work for us, but the second one helped alot. Just being able to talk about it with someone who could answer questions helped. Knowing we had one hour a week to discuss it helped me stop talking about it all the time which was driving my husband crazy. Neither of us had ever seen a counselor, and he was skeptical of the process at first. In the end, we both agree that it was the best thing we could have done and something we would try in the future if we needed it. We are now at a point where we are at peace with using a donor and agreed it was time to move forward. This was huge for us because there were days I did not see how we could ever agree. I think there will always be a little uneasiness since this is not yet openly talked about in society. I wish there were local support groups where people who used DI could meet and talk openly about their experiences. This whole process was made more difficult because we did not know ANYONE who used a donor. Chances are that we do know someone who used a donor, but no one admits it. Best of luck and feel free to message me.
  • courtneygacourtneyga Junior Member Junior Member
    I'm in a similar situation. My husband was diagnosed with testicular cancer at 21 (about a year after we started dating) and cannot have children biologically. From the beginning, I've been gung ho about adoption, I even majored in Child and Family Development with an emphasis in adoption (in addition to my PR major) and signed up with adoption support listservs.

    However, now that we're getting to the point of actually planning our family, I really want to experience pregnancy. I want to be able to control the health of our babies in utero. Also, as mentioned before, it is so much more cost-effective. I'm extremely healthy as is my entire family (good genes to pass on) and I'm a redhead so I would love to pass that on to a child!

    My husband is perfectly fine with adoption, but when I brought up donor sperm a month ago, he said he didn't like the idea. Anyone have some insight into a guy's mind?
  • k&bk&b Senior Member Senior Member
    Courtney,
    My husband has azoospermia (0 sperm count) and there is no explanation. He has had all the genetic testing, testosterone testing, no blockages etc...it just is. It took him about 3 years to decide he would be ok with donor sperm. Even then, it was 6 months from the time we had our first RE visit to the time he was ready for use to actually try. Every man handles the news differently. For my husband, he felt "less of a man" and incapable of doing "what all his friends so easily did" We went through some therapy, both apart and together. He still mourns the inability to pass his genetics on to his children, but now that we are actually pregnant, he is doing better. I highly recommend the book Helping The Stork. It was good for my husband to read other men's stories and realize he is not alone, and that his feelings are normal.
    The hardest part for him to overcome was the idea that someone else (i.e. donor) did something so trivial (donate into a cup) and have millions of sperm, when he could not produce one. He was fine with adoption, because no one else was "getting me pregnant". We were very diligent to never refer to the donor as "he" and we chose a donor that did not have lifetime pictures. Our first donor we saw the pictures of, and my husband wished he never did. He felt like he would have that picture in his head forever, and compare our child with it. We switched donors after 5 failed IUIs, and feel like it is for the best that we don't have a mental picture of the current donor.
    Again, check out the book, and consider therapy, even just a couple of sessions, so your hubby can feel heard in a neutral territory.
    Hang in there... Hopefully he will come to understand the importance to you of bearing a child.
  • MRBMRB Junior Member Junior Member
    well i thought i would cast a guys perspective on this topic. me and my wife started having trouble conceiving on our own and after a year of trying naturally and a couple of rounds of clomid they decided to have me tested. i will say that both me and my wife are engineers so we look at every challenge in life as a problem that needs to be solved. after two sperm tests that returned a 0 count we decided to do a testicular biopsy. after having 3 samples taken from each side i was told that i suffered from Sertoli-Cell-Only syndrome. this was a blow to our plans for children and in a way felt like a death blow. all i can imagine is it is along the lines of how a woman feels after loosing a pregnancy. we looked into adoption and i was even thinking of asking my brother or father to give samples. the fear we had with family being the donor is we feared that if any birth defects occurred that they would blame them self because we used their sperm. this is what lead me and my wife to the idea of donor sperm. that way we would both be able to experience the pregnancy, and birth of our children. both children are biologically identical being to the same donor. like i said before as an engineer this was the best solution to our problem and was a way to help me heal. i felt defective and the only thing that would fix that is having children.

    we choose an anonymous donor and did not want any more info on the donor other than ethnicity, education, and medical history. after having two beautiful sons i will say that they are me in ever single way. where ever i go so many people say that me and my boys look so alike. it makes me smile and i say thank you (if they only knew), but the truth of the matter is that they are you. you are listed as the father on the Birth certificate and will be the only dad they know. i am truly thankful to the donor that took the time to help us make our family. i think i have come to terms with our decision because we explored every option we had and in the end this is what we both wanted. we do plan on telling our kids one day about all of this and our counselor said it best. you just tell your kids that when making our family that daddy needed some help in the form of cells to be able to have kids. that is the way i look at it. just like a blood transfusion is needed to save a life a sperm cells were needed to start a life. i hope this helps some of the wives out there whos husbands are on the fence. it was truly the best decision of my life and i have never regretted it. i had all kinds of fears before my first son was born, but after the little dude arrived all that faded away. Best of luck to all of you and like i said i hope this helps hearing a guys position.
  • wawafontwawafont Junior Member Junior Member
    I have a similar story to k&b. My husband had a 0 sperm count also. We went to freeze when he was diagnosed with cancer 6 years ago and there was nothing to freeze. He got a second option and had a testicular biopsy. Still nothing. We decided on the donor after many years of discussion. We asked his brother to donate and he said no after jerking us around for 1 1/2 years. My husband was open to adoption or the donor. I was the one that took some convincing. Now our beautiful daughter is here and he loves her so much, we both do. I think we will tell her when she is old enough to understand. The donor we chose had the open id option. I didn't want to choose that but we used a face match and he was the only one that came up.
  • sine4mesine4me Senior Member Senior Member
    MRB,
    Thank you for sharing your story. I have a friend, her and her husband are going through this struggle. I'm hoping your words may give them some peace.
  • parsonsparsons Junior Member Junior Member
    My diagonis is 0 sperm count also. I had a little hard time with the idea also but looked at it this way. I'm a huge dog lover we have 3 dogs and their isn't anything in the world I wouldnt do for my dogs. They are my kids in true fashion i treat them with just as much respect. Sounds weird and my wife uses it while talking to others about what I went through.

    When selecting our donor I told my wife I wanted a couple things. I didn't want adoption because I wanted to go through the pregnancy with my wife. (1 in 100,000 men want this I think) why can't we have this experience together like any other person without problems. her feeling the baby grow, me seeing the changes, seeing the baby in the ultrasound, showing the pictures around as the proud papa.

    Things I agreed to.
    Annomious donor no way of finding him
    Same body type, eyes, hair, and skin color
    A childhood photo that looks like me

    I did not want to see adult photos this is a little to.


    It sounds out of this world to have someone else be my kids bio dad but really I want experiences that every other man gets with his wife. And borrowing someone else's cells to make a kid that I will have since day one of its life, it will know no difference. And they always say that husband and wife start looking alike after being with eachother for years. The same things happens with children. Kids will pick up personalitys, traits and other things from parents.

    If he needs to talk to another guy with sort of the same problem private message me and we can get in contact. It's just my view that every family (guy mostly) shouldn't have to just accept the idea of "we can't do it because i have parts that are not working". My wife and I went though years of trying, tons of money to try to fix my issues with surgreys, and heartbreak with each month that went on. Every email that went out at work with "we're expecting" chats at lunch of oh look at what our baby did this week was just a slap in the face and made me hate myself even more. I couldn't be happier with our choice in going the IUI route and our twins that are due shortly.
  • janbabyjanbaby Senior Member Senior Member
    My husband was reluctant at first also but now our son is the most precious thing in the world to him and people comment all the time about how much he looks like him, and when they do he smiles so much I sometimes think his face will crack. We are trying for another baby next year but unfortunately my donor is not available anymore so I am hoping to find another just as perfect :-)
  • jenard99jenard99 Junior Member Junior Member
    Me and my husband are both 39 and I want to have a baby with my husband of 3 years. Between the 2 of us we have 3 kids already (23, 14, & 12) the two oldest are mines from previous relationships and his is the youngest. Before we got married we discussed having another child as a product of our love to each other but after trying for the past 2 years he finally confessed to me that he was sterol. I was devastated and hurt. Ever since then I have been trying in vain to get him to see a specialist but he refuses. I suggested adoption and he said no to that as well. Now I'm looking into donors and he basically told me that I'm on my own and this might be the end of our marriage. I also found out that my daughter is pregnant with her first child and I've become somewhat jealous because my husband doesn't want to have a child with me and its causing a majore strian on our marriage. I know soem might see this as me being demanding or crazy especially given that I will be a grandmother soon, but it's not about trying to hold on to my youth its more about having a child with my husband. I'm really considering doing this on my own but I'm scared. Any advice is greatly welcomed.
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