No OPK detection, missed ovulation

blkern23

Oh, I'm so frustrated! I started the process to have IUI 5 months ago. I'm sure that isn't that long compared to how long a lot of you have been trying, but it seems like a long time for me. It's been 5 months and I have yet to even get to try my 1st IUI attempt. Finally this month I was finally told I could try my 1st attempt. I was VERY excited...counting down the days. My doctor put me on Clomid 50mg on days 5-9. I ovulate, but was ovulating too soon and my hormone levels weren't high enough to support a pregnancy. The hope was to extend my cycle longer and boost my hormone levels.

Fast forward a couple of weeks...I took the Clomid and started testing on day 10 as I was instructed. Day 16 arrived with no positive OPK. My doctor wanted me to come in for blood work. Turns out I never tested positive but I missed ovulation. I don't understand how that happened. I tested the past 4 months and I always got a positive when I ovulated. Turns out my Estradiol levels were 2300 so it was probably best I didn't have the IUI because it could have led to high order multiples, but it's still frustrating!

I am waiting to hear back from my doctor to see what his next game plan will be. I spoke to one of the nurses and she said she can't say for sure what the doctor's next plan will be, but it will definitely include u/s to predict ovulation next month. I'm not sure if he will keep my on the Clomid and if not, what he will do to boost my hormone levels.

I know it was best and God's plan for me to not have the IUI done this month with that many follicles. I know the doctor wants everything aligned perfect before I try so I don't miscarry. I know all that, but it still kills me to have to keep waiting and waiting. I count down the days each month and then something goes wrong each month to make me wait another month. I'm so sick of the waiting to even get to try! Now the 30 day countdown begins again.....

blkern23

I've been pretty discouraged the past couple of months since I wrote this last post. My doctor decided because of the way my body reacted to the Clomid the next plan would be Follistim and HCG trigger shot. I went in last month for my day 1-5 u/s and they found a couple of 5 CM cysts. Because of the cysts I had to wait another month....another 30 day count down. He put me on birth control for the month in order to hopefully help my hormones get back to normal and the cysts to go away. For 7 months now I have had tests done...had something go wrong...wait another month for more tests...have more go wrong. I have been "trying" for 6 months and have not even had my first IUI yet.

So...tomorrow morning I go in for my day 1-5 u/s to see if the cysts are gone. I am praying the cysts are gone and they will let me move forward. Although even then I am nervous about how my body will react to the Follistim. I'm afraid even once I get the clear u/s something will happen and my doctor will cancel another IUI. He is starting me on the lowest dose of Follistim, 33 units, in hopes my body doesn't overreact again. I am praying this is finally the month I can have my first IUI.

I can't imagine how hard the 2 week wait will be some day, but I figure it must be better than the countless "30 day count downs to more bad news" I have done the past 7 months. I will let you know how things turn out this month! Any additional prayers are welcome!!!

blkern23

And the bad news continues...

Just like every other month, I anxiously count down the month and get more bad news. I went in for my day 1-5 u/s this morning. I still have a cyst from 2 months ago. I guess the birth control managed to get rid of 2 out of 3 cysts, but I still have a 4cm cyst. So I need to wait yet another month. I am taking birth control again this month. I suppose maybe next month I'll get to have my first IUI, but I'm not counting on it.

And the countdown begins again...

blkern23

I go in for my baseline U/S tomorrow morning. I don't know how to feel. I am hoping my cysts are gone. I am somewhat excited because I have to think who has cysts left over from 3 months ago but then I think...ME. Nothing so far has gone "normal". I realize there isn't much of a normal with this, but from what my re has said, I have hit on every crazy, abnormal possibility since I started. I feel like this could finally be the month (1st out of 8 since I started the process) where they will finally try my first IUI. I don't think I'll sleep at all tonight because there is still that part of me who thinks there is a chance that there will still be a cyst and they'll cancel again. This seemed like the longest cycle ever. I don't know if I can do it another month without driving myself crazy. So wish me luck and send some prayers my way for the morning.