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cykaqueen

Okay so I'm in the bitter stage I guess you could say because of the negative pregnancy result I just received this past Monday from my first iui on April 6. I feel so upset that it didn't work and I'm having a really hard time with believing it. I thought it was going to be it. I think it's ridiculous how much money places charge for donor sperm- which is only one vial of about 50ml. its nuts how much it costs to do the iui procedure and how there is no actual discount that is saving any of us money who are going back to do the procedure over and over again. I am rambling and stressed because I want to start my family so badly but I feel like the procedures and sperm are too costly for taking a chance. Idk I'm a mess.

familylove3

yanla_til

cykaqueen

Familylove3 : thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm sorry how much you've been through that really must've been so terrible. It's so sad that people every day are blessed with baring children and they either don't want children it was an accidental pregnancy or worse and all of us here are trying our hardest and doing crazy things to be a mom. It's so sad it makes me cry because we all yearn for the same thing and that's to have a child of our own. Just about every day I cry because all I want is for god to give me a chance to be the mom I know I can be. I have nieces and nephews and I see how some people take having children for granted and all I want in the world is to be called mommy and hold my child. I was shocked yesterday when I woke up because AF had arrived. I never get my period on my own and always have to end up on provera to get it. So I took it as a sign and my wife and I decided maybe we should work with this cycle as our second iui. Scarily this is going to be our last chance. We have no more reserve money for the procedures and no more vials. I feel like I beg and plead with god everyday to please bless me and I hope he will help me this cycle. I need all the prayers I can get because this is so important to me. I feel as though being a mom will complete me and it is my purpose. Please pray for me... & I will be doing the same. Today I am going into my fertility clinic for the start of my second cycle. Today is day 2: baselines and ultrasound. I'm on prenatals and baby aspirin. Crossing fingers toes arms and legs! Thank you again for your reply !!!

cykaqueen

Yanla: thank you for replying. Yes it was definitely the hardest experience I've ever had to be in. I am taking a leap of faith this time around and gonna go for cycle two . AF showed up so I'm going to try my best to keep a positive attitude this time around.... But please keep me in your prayers I pray for everyone on here that everyone gets bfp and has the family they desire!