new to this and super overwhelmed

wcgymnast
wcgymnast Junior Member Junior Member
Hi I am a 41 yr old female from PA that has done endless dating, wasted time in past relationships and here I am almost 42 and single and wanting a family. I just simply have not found the right person to start a family with...yet. I have gone to a fertility clinic in my area and have a plan set to start IUI with a donor. I just started clomid yesterday and going through the process early August. I am soooo OVERWHELMED with it all. I have come up with zero matches with my criteria which I don't feel are unrealistic, but then again just started my search tonight...I am not sure specifically what advice I am looking for but it is normal to have all emotions...guilt being one for wanting a baby with no biological father in the picture...it breaks my heart but I feel I don't have any other choice...and I know I am meant to be a mom.

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  • jaszica
    jaszica Junior Member Junior Member
    Don't feel overwhelmed. You are making a great decision to bring a baby into the world where it will be completely loved. I am 43 single (divorced) and 20 weeks pregnant through IVF. It is the best decision I ever made. I have friends that constantly argue with their partner over how to parent, one who's BF took off and abandoned them, and some that are happily married. There are no guarantees! I have also found lots of single mom by choice groups. There are tons of us out there for support. Don't worry and just enjoy the journey!
  • D-rizzy
    D-rizzy Senior Member Senior Member
    Wcgymnast, I am 37 and just starting on my journey to become a single mom. It took me over a month to find the perfect donor for me. I decided on 4538 and his numbers have been great for my first 2 IUIs. I am currently in the TWW for insemination #2. I haven't used medication for my first 2 cycles but will if this one is not successful.
    It is a very overwhelming process but in the end we will be blessed with healthy babies!!

    Jaszica, can you share the single mother by choice support groups you have found?
  • txgrl74
    txgrl74 Senior Member Senior Member
    I am 39 and also a SMBC. I haven't found the right man but I really want to be a mom. I would never have thought in a million years that I would still be single and not have at least one child. So I started the process in January and had my first IUI in May, and my second just this month. This will be my last unmedicated IUI as I will be discussing with my doctor shortly. Good Luck in your journey.
  • lposh
    lposh Senior Member Senior Member
    Wcgymnast,
    I think we all have a lot in common. I just turned 38 and started the iui process in June. This month will be my second iui attempt with meds. Im hoping to do a piggy back iui next week.

    I always knew I would be a mom however, didn't imagine this would be my path. I told myself that if if wasn't married or in a committed relationship by this year I would look in to the donor process. I am a successful, caring and compassionate woman as are all of the wonderful ladies i have been grateful to meet on this thread.

    I was very terrified when picking my donor 4211. There are so many emotions and things I had to consider that I hadn't expected to feel.

    I had a physical characteristic I knew I was looking for then realized there was more to really think about when deciding. I struggled with anonymous and ID option for awhile. There was also a fear if I looked too deep into this particular donor I would start to become attached to him somehow. In fact I dreaded listening to his voice. Maybe I'm just too much of a softy though. But how he answered the questions, I was assured he was the right donor for me and my future child. I did end up picking an anonymous donor and feel more comfortable about that decision now than I did before.

    I've also struggled and chatted with these girls about dating during this process. Along with many other thoughts and ideas.
    One thing I personally have had a hard time thinking about in my heart is wether this is fair to my child to not have a father. I grew up with a father that wasn't very much there for me and I have been affected much by that. And in some way I think I might do this unintentionally to my child by picking a donor.
    What I have to remind myself is how much love this child will receive not only from me but also my support system. And having a baby doesn't mean I won't be married when God see's it's right for me. I am soo excited to soon be a mother. Words can't even express.

    I think we all are very courageous women to be able to walk this journey. I love that each day I can sit and read and respond to these women that totally understand what it's like to do this. I can't tell you what a difference meeting these ladies and talking daily has helped me emotionally.

    I hope you continue to keep us updated on your experiences.)
    Kisses
    Lisa
  • jaszica
    jaszica Junior Member Junior Member
    Hi D-rizzy,

    I have found many on Meetup.com under a local search for single mom's or single parents.

    The big group seems to be Single Mothers by Choice (http://www.singlemothersbychoice.org) as well as Choice Moms (choice moms.org), Single Mothers (http://www.singlemothers.org), Parents without Partners.

    I am trying to decide which to join!

    Good luck and best wishes